define happiness
Thursday, October 20, 2016 | 4:16 AM | 0 Dreamer(s)

I have only him as my laughing gas.
I felt like my family is not there for me. Selfish and unsupportive. 
He's there to hear me out.
I always reach him first before anyone else now.
I can't imagine if I lose him.
I would have.........nobody else.
Saturday, October 8, 2016 | 8:15 PM | 0 Dreamer(s)

I fear distances. 
I don't like being far away from the person i love. 
I hate to face the truth that we're not living in the same place.
We are still so young and so in love with each other. 
There's so many other things that we have yet to accomplish. We have our own goals. Since we've been together,, we decided to include each other in it. 
Ya Allah I pray to you that he is my soul mate ❤️
I fear of losing him. He has been my sunshine, the one that can make me smile during my toughest time, the one that makes me happy even he has nothing much to offer. For as he the man that can make such happiness, then he is of worthy to be love.
Thursday, August 4, 2016 | 6:29 AM | 0 Dreamer(s)

2016. A brand new year for me. A fresh new start when I found a guy that worth wasting time with. I adore him so much. He pretty much heals my broken part which is my heart. I'm so glad that I found him. I'm so happy when I'm with him. He adores me dearly and i adore him dearly too. I fell in love with his smile and his sincerity. 

I miss him when he is not around me. I misses him every single second. He's a nice guy. He's always there for me. I hope we stick together through thick and thin. I love him so much and I can't stop thinking about him. I love you i love you i love you so much b. 

Ya Allah I pray to you that he is my soulmate and the father of my children ❤️ 

Growing older and all you can think of is what your future holds. I hope my future is with him. I'm drunk in love but I am still sane. He makes me feel like my imperfection is not important. He fills the hole inside of me. I hope he feels the same way as much as how I feel about him. Ya Allah Ya Allah protect him and all the people I love. 

I actually can't go a day without him but in this situation I have to hold my drill. He is now in his final semester and currently in industrial training session. I am in my final semester and will be doing the practical thing next semester, insyaallah. 

I hope I am not too clingy. Even if I am super clingy, i hope he is not annoyed. I love him so much now I can't lose him.

19/3 my everything 00:51❤️

Thursday, May 8, 2014 | 2:41 AM | 0 Dreamer(s)

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 
― Bob Marley

“I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.” 
― Albert Einstein

“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living.” 
― Dr. Seuss

“The Paradoxical Commandments

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.” 
― Kent M. Keith, The Silent Revolution: Dynamic Leadership in the Student Council
Brain review : The Society
Sunday, February 2, 2014 | 7:44 AM | 0 Dreamer(s)

I am not sure if anybody would like who I am at the very first moment they met me.
At some point in life, you will always have the highest anxiety and the lowest confidence at the very same time, right?
Well, that same point in my life, would be; when I meet a person for the first time or; when people criticised my personality or my looks or my body parts or anything that involves me.

Sometimes, I've always wonder why the idea of criticising and comparing exist?
Do you get what I mean? Not the part where it is needed to determine intelligence or for other some logical general reasons. I am obviously talking about one of the 'characteristics' that the 'society' has.
I hate talking about this but I've kept so many thoughts about it and it is driving me nuts.
Dumb-fuck-go to hell-society!
This is related to the upcoming spm result of mine. I am already mad and nervous and anxious and mentally dying waiting. Nobody loves to wait. I know that because I hate to wait and not even saint people around me does too. And.. because I knew I will not pass in flying colours but I could only hope for the best. Trust me everybody has their own sense of future. I have. At the end, all I could give back to society is a zero fucks. yes, who cares what people thinks. Success isn't just determined by comparing or looking at your master phD degree certificate or your job or your working position. Being successful is also involving having survival skills and self-independent. If you have a phD certificate but you don't know how to lights up the fire during the heavy winter when you get lost inside a thick woods is that thick framed paper is that even worthy don't you think? But hey who doesn't want to further their studies until phD level and gain loads of new knowledge at the same time. Oh I wish. What I am trying to say is that not all people can succeed in the same way or be in the same road to success, some manage to climb the top well enough, but some have to fix their broken safety belt first or some have to figure out the correct path to reach the top safe and sound.
Fuck please don't even think to even judge me by this random sticking thoughts for months already okay.